Wednesday, 31 December 2008
You would think that would happen with someone drinking heavily! The thing is I Dont drink at all, nothing, zilch so wtf why was I up at 4am this morning puking?
Must have been something I ate obviously but its still a little irritating when I dont drink, wasnt even drunk or anything like that!
So I welcome the new year in with a foul taste in my mouth, tired as I have to work for 8am and cant even go to sleep at lunch as I have to work then aswell
See things dont change, It maybe 2009 but someone up in the clouds is still watching me and having a right good laugh!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Wednesday, 24 December 2008
Tuesday, 23 December 2008
1. Lose 12lbs
2.Drink Green Tea every day
3.Pay off alot of my debt instead of running up more
Ok so Ive got 12 months to achieve those 4 things, lets see how I do
You see there was a major gas explosion here, a few miles away and it blew out a number of small towns 18,000 homes without gas now and well im pleased to say our town was the only one that didnt get effected! how jammy!
Its December its cold, Gas here in the UK is a main energy source, we heat our homes, cook our dinners, wash ourselves and pretty much wipe our asses with gas, ok maybe not the latter but we rely on it heavily
So its Christmas eve, eve and many homes are facing no heating over Christmas, it really couldnt come over a worse time!
Why dont these things happen in Spring or summer?
I dont really rely on my heating much, I have it on a bit in the day but generally I am cold but just put more clothes on. Although hot water is a must
Anyway I just wanna note how damn lucky I feel today
Sunday, 21 December 2008
1. GET MARRIED
2. GET A HOUSE - DONE
3. HAVE KIDS - DONE
4. TRAVEL TO AMERICA (TOO SEE MY FRIEND) CHICAGO,NEWYORK, LAS VEGAS, FLORIDA ( THERE THE MAIN PLACES) ALSO WOULDNT MIND SEEING CANADA
5. TO GO TO PARIS
6. TO GO TO ROME (DONE)
7.TO OWN A REALLY EXPENSIVE NEW CAR
8.TO GROW MY HAIR REALLY LONG (KINDA DONE)
9. TO BUNGEE JUMP ( I STILL DONT KNOW IF I REALLY WANT TO DO THAT)
10. TO BE RICH ( IM WORKING ON IT)
11. TO GO ON A MEGA BIG SHOPPING SPREE FOR THE DAY IN MANCHESTER AND GET SOMEONE TO CARRY MY BAGS BACK TO THE CAR, AND TO GO WITH SOMEONE WHO LIKES SHOPPING AS MUCH AS ME
12. TO GET A REALLY GOOD FRIEND ( KINDA DONE) JUST CANT SEE HER :-(
IL HAVE TO ADD MORE WHEN I THINK OF MORE
I DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT ELSE I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE!
Friday, 19 December 2008
1. IM 27
2. IM FEMALE
3. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT COFFEE
4.I LOVE TO SLEEP MORE THEN ANYTHING
5. I LOVE CARS
6. MY DREAM CAR - I DONT HAVE ONE - I HAVE MANY, RANGE ROVER SPORT FOR ONE
7.MY CURRENT CAR IS A HONDA HRV 2001 REG
8.IVE ONLY BEEN ABROAD 3X, SPAIN X2 AND ITALY ONCE
9.I HAVE 2 SONS
10.I LOVE AUTUMN AND WINTER
11. MY CATS ARE CALLED HUGO AND JAZZ
12. I ALWAYS HAD DOGS WHEN GROWING UP THOUGH
13.MY DREAM IS TO BE RICH
16.AND HAVE A NICE SPOTLESS HOUSE
17. PEOPLE GET JEALOUS OF ME
18.IM VERY SARCASTIC
20.I LIKE TO SHOW OFF
21.AND LOOK HOT
22.BUT IM NOT A SLAPPER, TART OR WHORE
23.I NEVER LISTEN TO THE RADIO
24.I USE TO THOUGH
25.I OWN A BLACKBERRY
26.IVE BEEN WITH MY BOYFRIEND SINCE 2000 OR 2001 I CANT REMEMBER!
27. I HOPE TO GET MARRIED SEPT 3RD 2009 BUT I HAVENT BOOKED IT YET
28.MY DREAM DRESS SIZE A UK8 (8 STONE ISH) TIGHT AND FIRM
29.I HAVE STRETCHMARKS BEHIND MY KNEES, THIGHS, SIDES OF STOMACH
30. I DONT THINK IL HAVE ANYMORE BABIES
31. IM SCARED OF FLYING
32. I ALWAYS THINK THE WORSE THEN IM NOT DISAPPOINTED
33. I NEVER EXPECT ANYTHING FROM ANYONE
34, I ALWAYS SAY PLEASE AND THANK YOU
35. I DONT LIKE WASTERS, CHAVS AND LOSERS
36. I FIND DARK HAIRED MEN MORE ATTRACTIVE THEN ANY OTHER HAIR COLOUR
37. I HAVE A LONG TERM FRIENDSHIP WITH MY FRIEND TAMMY
38. I FEEL LIKE WE HAVE MET BEFORE-SOMEHOW
39. SHE LIKES ME TOO LOL AND IS HOT!
40. MY FAMILY IS WEIRD
41. MY SISTERS ARE 15 AND 16 YEARS OLDER THEN ME AND I SEE THEM ONCE A YEAR
42. THEY LIVE MANY MILES AWAY
43. I HAVE ADOPTED JOHNS FAMILY HE HAS 5 SISTERS
44. IM FASINATED WITH CELEBRITIES
45. I LIKE TO IMAGINE WHAT THERE LIVES ARE LIKE
46. I FANCY MR BIG FROM SEX AND THE CITY
47. HE IS 55 THOUGH AND IM 27 SO THATS PROBABLY WRONG RIGHT?
48. I NEVER IMAGINED ID BE DOING MY JOB SO LONG
49. IM SCARED I MIGHT LOSE MY JOB ONE DAY
50. I USE TO SMOKE FOR 10 YEARS 20 FAGS A DAY AND GAVE UP IN MID 2005
51. I HAVENT SMOKED SINCE
52. I DONT DRINK ALCHOL
53. I OWE ALOT OF MONEY :-(
54. SOMETIMES IT WORRIES ME
55. I SHOP TOO MUCH
56. AND CARE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK TOO
57. I WONDER WHAT ID LOOK LIKE BLONDE?
58. I WOULD HAVE PLASTIC SURGERY
59. I DONT MAKE FRIENDS EASILY
60. BUT WHEN I DO THEY ARE FOR LIFE!
61. I WOULD LOVE TO TRAVEL THE WORLD
62. AND DREAM OF WINNING THE LOTTO
63. MUSIC ANNOYS ME
64. AND SO DO FILMS
65. I FIND IT HARD TO READ BOOKS
66. I SPEND ALOT OF TIME ON THE NET
67. I LOVE TO ENTER COMPETITIONS THOUSANDS A MONTH
68. I ONCE WON A 2 NIGHT BREAK IN ROME MANY MOONS AGO
69. IM CLUMSY - WHILE TYPING THIS I KNOCKED MY DRINK OVER AGAIN! GRRR
70. I COULD NEVER HAVE CREAM CARPETS
71. I EAT CHOCOLATE
72. I LOVE KFC.CHINESE AND STUFF THATS NOT GOOD!
73. I WONT EAT SAD CHICKENS UNLESS THERE FAST FOOD ONES
74. I LOVE TO GIVE PEOPLE PRESENTS
75. I WOULD LIKE TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY BUT THERE NOT INTERESTED
76. IM NOT VERY GOOD WITH SAYING WHAT I FEEL
77. I DONT LIKE CONFRONTATION
78. I LOVE MANCHESTER CITY CENTRE
79. I GREW UP IN READING ITS NEAR LONDON
80. I DONT MISS IT MUCH BUT WONDER WHAT MY LIFE WOULD HAVE BEEN LIKE
81. MY STOMACH RUBBLES ALOT
82.IF I HAD A BIG GARDEN OR LAND ID LIKE TO KEEP CHICKENS
83.I DONT LIKE HORSES
84.OR SPIDERS OR SLUGS
85.OR ANYTHING THAT MOVES FASTER THEN ME
86.HARDLY EVER SKIPS BREAKFAST AS IT MAKES ME HUNGRY ALL DAY
87. ALTHOUGH SKIPPED DINNER TONIGHT AS I WAS FEELING LAZY AND ATE LOADS OF CRAP
88. WISH SHE HAD MORE DETERMINATION TO LOSE THE FINAL 13LBS OF WEIGHT
89. BUT CANT BE ARSED AS FOOD TASTES GOOD
90. I ALWAYS WONDER WHAT PEOPLE THINK OF ME
91. I OFTEN THINK ABOUT MY EX'S
92. I WONDER WHAT ITS LIKE TO BE POPULAR
93.HATES SLEEPING IN HER HOUSE ALONE WITHOUT JOHN
94.BECAUSE SHE HAS A FEAR OF SOMEONE BREAKING IN
95.HAS ALWAYS WORKED EXCEPT THE TIME WHEN I WAS HAVING MY BABIES
96.HARDLY EVER GETS ILL
97. APPLIED FOR BIG BROTHER 3 YEARS IN A ROW YEARS AGO AND DIDNT GET ANYTHING
98.AND THANKS HER LUCKY STARS SHE DIDNT
99.HATES IT WHEN THINGS GO WRONG
100.THE WORD LOL IRRIATES ME YET ITS ALRIGHT
I thought id have a nosy so I got all the pieces out and didnt build it because id have to screw the parts in and I really cant be arsed with that, anyway I started to put the parts back in the box, urmm how come I cant fit all the pieces back in the box? surely its not that difficult, Ok take all the pieces out and re-arrange them, slip that under there, ok, nope that doesnt work either.
Now im thinking, does it matter if all the bits go back in the box! Shouting at myself in my head! YES it does matter! Just think when Charlies bored of this toy its going to be prepacked in the same box and sold on ebay
A few minutes or 20 later I finally manage to get it all in! Thank god, although it wouldnt close properly and was bulging! So i got some parcel tape and stuck it down lol...I Dont think Charlie will notice!
Anyhow Im sure im not the only person who has had this happen to them!
Do they train little guys or gals in these factories to pack things in a certain way?
Wednesday, 17 December 2008
just like 6 ilbs left to go and I know I should feel alot better about myself.
I wouldnt say I was dieting as Im still having nice things this is what I ate today
Breakfast Cheerios, with Milk and
Lunch - 3 Pancakes 86 cals each
Mid afternoon packet of crisps 140 cals - chocolate mousse 240 cals
and a few of those chocs that are shaped like coins
2 beef sausages grilled 121 cals each and brocholli
So if I hadnt binged on the mousse and crisps it would have been a good day but still I think I done pretty good
Tuesday, 16 December 2008
I Dont know...what would you do?
I love the fact I can log on and find out anything I want
I can shop from home and not have to do any xmas shopping in the shops as I hate that...urghh crowds!!
Internet banking is great! although sometimes i have to go back to flintstone ways to pay a cheque in...
I Dont own a cheque book though! who does? WTF
There is a downside to the internet...you can sit there all night browsing through crap and not actually do anything predictive also its soooo easy to spend money.
You can make bags load of money from the internet if you look hard enough you will find it, trust me...
I cant think of anything else to say but i just wanted to write some more crap
All that changes when you become a Mother and this morning I feel like crap, like really bad crap..... I just want to lay in bed and not get up for a very long time!
My body has been fighting this infection the last week as Ive been sneezing well now that cold has won, Felt ok yesterday, but today urghhh my head is pounding, I ache all over, Im exhausted and theres no point me even trying to get to sleep as I have a baby to look after...
My poor Charlie cant barely breathe he is that bunged up, yet I sit up with him all night cuddling him and telling him it will be ok, while my eyes are trying there best to shut. Jay who is nearly 3 hasnt figured out how to blow his nose yet so when I get him in the morning he has dried snot all over the place, makes his eyebrows stick up...SO he has gone to nursery but I said for them to call me if he seems like he is not his self, they have the Christmas play today so they want to video him on dvd...We will have to see what happens Im sure il get a call later
So my advice is before you have kids....get in as much sleep as you can, take as many sick days as you can as for a very very very long time your not going to get to lay in, even if your kids dont wake up early, they still need breakfast making for them, they still need taking to school etc and there nappies changing.
But if your a bloke and your reading this, dont worry, your life wont change that much, infact your still be able to take those sick days as we all know that WOMEN MAKE THE WORLD GO ROUND!
Monday, 15 December 2008
As we entered the grotto it looked pretty neat, although Santa what can i say? He must have been on a running machine or done atkins! he simply was not FAT enough! Jay looked like he was going to cry till he gave him some chocolate...what a great example we give our children...except chocolate from chubby weird men who look kinda creepy, still Jay wasnt too keen until he gave him a pressie all wrapped up...maybe thats why he didnt cry....
We had our picture taken it was all rather modern, didnt even see a camera it was attached and hidden you could see it on the monitor! it wasnt a very good picture either but its a memory (I will need to scan it) or something as i dont own a scanner its a little prehistoric!
As we stepped out there was a desk all fancy like saying here are your pictures and your options, you can have this thing, this and this for £10 or these 2 pics for £7.50, ok 2 pics will do, they look crap but when my kids are 15 I doubt they will want to go and sit on santas knee! so its a nice memory to look back on.
I was going to give santa my list but he didnt look like the real one, certainly with not having enough fat around his body, I didnt want to take my chances
So santa if you read my list this is what i want
1) WINNING LOTTERY TICKET JACKPOT OVER 2 MILLION POUNDS AND VALID!
OK i wont be greedy, thats all i want, I need at least 2 million pounds though as 1 million just wont be good enough as I have alot of things I want and need to get on with and being such a peasant is not good for the soul, for me or people around me, not to mention the debts I have landed myself in as I punch in my credit card number online thinking its only money....so please please please santa if you think im a good girl or you have not been doing your job properly observing my behaviour send me that winning lotto ticket so I can live my life the way i want too without any boundries! I know i would make so many people happy with it!
Also id like to grow some big tits...without the surgery and please make sure they dont sag!
Friday, 12 December 2008
didnt manage to grab anything except a coffee, level teaspoon of white sugar, splash of full fat milk
1030am - hungry now had Warburtons Raisin bread with cinn and Flora margerine x2 cup of Tropicana orange juice
an hour or so later
Coffee 1 sugar splash of full fat mik
2 Crumpets 100cals each - 200cals with some margerine
an hour or so later
Coffee, sugar splash of milk round eileens
530pm IM STARVING scoff a packet of bacon flavoured Crisps (130cals) and a cookie 52cals
gone 6pm kids in bed time to make my food,
2 medium sliced warburtons peices of bread, magerine, and heinz baked beans
3 tiny little terrys chocolate orange pieces, equals to 3 sweets am guessing around 150 cals to be on the safe side but its probably less
so its just gone 7pm so no eating anything with calories in it now till the morning ...
here is my breakdown calorie wise
3 sugars - 15cals each total 45cals
half a pint of milk but prob less for those coffees 180 cals
orange juice about 100cals
2 warburtons raisin bread with cinnemmon -200cals
2 warburtions crumpets -200cals
2 warburtons wholemeal bread 200cals
heinz baked beans 300cals
flora magerine -100 cals?
that evil cookie 52cals
those evil crisps 130cals
those yummy evil chocolate orange pieces 120cals
a rough estimated total for today:- 1627 roughly which isnt bad but if i cut out the crisps and chocolate it would have been 1377 roughy
Ideally 1200 cals would be a good point but anything 1300-1400 should show me results in losing weight
I dont have loads to lose, id be happy with losing 7lbs then take it from there
So now my blog may come in handy, i havent weighed myself for a few weeks but i was about 9stone 2-4 roughly
so ive got to eat better and beat the baby bulge and also find some time to excercise too
Thursday, 11 December 2008
Right its freaking freezing here, The snowman I made last week is still half alive although his head has melted, which means his big carrot nose is laying on the floor...
Theres patches of snow ice from last week its taking ages to clear, infact I cant remember the last time it was so cold that it wouldnt melt! Urghh its annoying when having to put the kids in the car and having to navigate around the icy paths...without going ass over tit!
A well known superstore called WOOLWORTHS is closing down it sells a bit of everything really, homewares, kids toys mainly and never was very good at giving you a bargain except when there was a sale on, so there closing down and are clearing all there stock off, we have a small one in RAWTENSTALL and went in there today with john around 9am and the kids in there Pushchair, it was crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy people were queing for miles, ok not miles but as far as I could see.
I had my eye on a Chest made of Wicker its pretty big £50 reduced to £30, excellent I thought as i carried it through the heard of people queing, hardly being able to see as its really that big then it came to me...urmmm how am i going to get it in my car, DOH!! anyway no it will be ok I thought, Il squeeze it in! how wrong was I, with the pushchair in the boot it takes up pretty much all the space, the kids are in the back and johns in the front so there was no way we were all going to get in!
Luckily johns dad lives about 10 mins away by walking and John said he would walk there as I drove, I said it wouldnt be the end of the world would it, you can always get a taxi
So now I figure I need a bigger car, maybe a 7 seater next as the other day I was faced with another problem, My honda hrv only has 4 seats 2 in the front and 2 at the back and they are wide, I didnt know this till I had paid the dealer the £4,000! but hey there is only 4 of us, and I have no plans to have any more children, and I guess if i had a 7 seater id then have to pick people up and the performance would be pants
I quite like my car, its alright, its the best I can afford for £4,000 although I think if I actually had some money id buy a bigger newer 4x4 for about £25,000 but thats just a pipe dream for now but its nice to have something to look forward too isnt it?
Thats another thing I dont understand, people who cant be bothered to work and better themselves then moan about it like life owes them! Wtf no life owes you nothing, you have an Equal chance of success and making money as anyone. Oh and I hate it when they say "OH YOUR SOOOOOOOOOO LUCKYYYYY like im lucky to have a mortgage over my head and lots of debt and bills bills bills.
It would absoultely kill me if either of my children decided they wanted to live off the state and not work, it would destroy everything I am, I dont know what id do, infact its something that worries me, I will do my best I can for them but I dont want them living off handouts, Its a way of life here in the UK, you can decide not to work and you get a free house, free everything and if you have kids your laughing! like 2 or 3 kids you pretty much get the same amount of money as a working family does but without having to get up and go to work....although they dont get given a house as such just somewhere to live....but they have a nice little life but i couldnt live like that, what would I do with all my time.
Before I had kids I always worked full time from 8am to 6pm , especially with my online job i worked constantly with no break at all and I miss not being able to work full time, I worry that people think im lazy and a lay about living off the state, although I like to think I dont look like I am with my Designer Ugg boots and nice Phil and teds pushchair, as lets face it, chavs cant afford those things even with the credit....
Well my babble is over now, I always have something to talk about hope it wasnt too boring to whoever can be assed to read lol
Monday, 8 December 2008
Decided to order a chinese and wish I hadnt as it was nasty and spent £22 on the both of us! most of mine ended up in the bin
Woke up later then usual 9:30am, Charlie in the middle of our bed, Jay playing in his bedroom!
Drove to Rawtenstall and got a couple of Xmas pressies
Stayed at home and watched Jays new DVD "Fireman Sam" then the kids went to sleep
Kids wake up and introduce Jay to Playdoh then that kept him quiet for the remainder of the afternoon!
Busy Busy Busy
Woke up and tried to find this car boot flea market, found it and it was massive! Bought lots of cheap toys for the kids! Wondering why I spent so much on new toys for them at xmas...or is it for me!?
Went to Farmers market and waited in the car for John, spoke to my mum who sounds ill :-( but I try and not think about it ( sad to say I dont think she will be here this time next year though)
Went home - got ready to go out to the party wore a pencil skirt black opaque tights with my 4 inch heels with a black top and black cardigan, people commented how nice I looked which was nice, also had some big ass control knickers on, as once you have had a baby your belly never goes flat again, and Ive had 2! and I must admit I dont excercise but Im pleased I can get my ass into a size 10 skirt!
Will add pics later
Got back house a mess which annoyed me, fed charlie put kids to bed
Spent 2 hours cleaning and trying to make things look somewhat normal
9pm laid down and watched Louis Therouz documentry followed by some desperate housewives
Thursday, 4 December 2008
Wednesday, 3 December 2008
I always wonder how popular people do it! How do they get surrounded by others and get loads of nice crap?
I must admit I do feel a bit lonely, It would be nice to have a girlfriend to hang around with, but when you get older it's alot harder to find those "special friendships". I admit I have tried and failed numerous times so it does not really bother me as much, especially since having kids as they take up alot of my time..
Being quite a sarcastic person I think sometimes people don't understand my humour, as after all humor is a funny thing, some people simply dont have any, and in that case....you have then insulted them!
It's a lovely feeling when you get a click with someone, and you can say anything to them and you know they will see the funny side, and see what you meant, even if there was a tiny insult in there...
It makes me laugh on social networking sites such as facebook and myspace, people that have like 3bilion friends but 2 wall posts from the same person! It's like....why do you want all those strangers looking at your personal pictures. I have about 50 people on myspace and they are people I know and talk to, or people I simply cannot cut ties with as I have known them for soooo long I just cant face to delete them from my friends list..
I had a girl from school who added me the other day, We were not close friends just in the same class form, we got on ok, she added me, so I thought "maybe she has something to say" I posted on her wall "hey how you doing" etc it been like a week, she not even bothered to message me back although she updates her status every few hours! so WTF delete, your no big loss BRENDA and im sure you won't even notice that one of your 3million friends has disappeared.
It must be a pain in the ass to be popular....
Tuesday, 2 December 2008
Sunday, 30 November 2008
My friend who I have never met, We often have dreams about one another.
The dreams I have of my friend are that im in USA normally a busy city and we are on some form of public transport, the last time it was a train.
I also had a dream about her when she was in UK here we were in Manchester on the bus! She also had a dream about her coming over here and that we were on a bus! maybe our souls linked together and thought "hey lets meet up and have some fun"
So maybe me and my friend should track our dreams and see if we have similar findings?
Friday, 28 November 2008
Ive always thought about writing a blog, but I just never got round to it, so thought "hey, why not?"
I am a hard working person who is indecisive, and somewhat erratic. I always look at ways of improving my life but never have the knowledge to do anything about it.
With 2 small children under the age of 3 I find it hard to do things for myself which is a bit of a sacrifice but I know its worth it, I know those years will pass me in a flash and I will be wishing I was living those special moments again.
I dont believe in god, I dont have any religous views except I know there is something that no one can explain but we all feel it in our different ways.
I believe in past lifes and soul mates, I believe the deep connections we have with some people mean more then just friendship.
Rude people irritate me, it never takes much to say thank you!
I love fashion and my favourite boot is the UGG! If I had enough money id buy every pair I could!
If money was no big obstacle for me, it would allow me to improve myself as well as others, It certainly would make me happy!
Id fly over to chicago business class and bring one of John's sisters to babysit so we could go out with my best friend tammy!
Age really just is a number, and distance can not make two people seem miles apart even though they are!
Again my time is up, as I have work to do..